The Ordeal

Ram, fearing that he might get fired stares deep into the space in front of his eyes almost as if glaring into the abyss and his past being reflected back.

Ram is an promising, enthusiastic young man. Being the Project Manager, he is vital to the success of his company. He has won many contracts for his company as his customer relations skills are so fine that it almost feels natural to see him present a contract to a customer. He has been recognized at global scenes and given much visibility by his company, successful and wealthy, that's what people call him. The bottom line is his company believes in him and he delivers.

About Life (About Part-2)

So, we are building a stronger subconscious Aakash, but when does it yield?
We just can’t wait till we become 24 carat and even if we do get all 24 carat fancy, how do we become jewels? When does the world start wanting to buy us?

For a clearer reference and better understanding of what you are going to read below, please refer to my Note: About – Dated – September 21,2012 https://www.facebook.com/notes/aakaash-pathak/about/510630568965542


 Yeah, so, the question is when does it yield?

All I want is a place on your shelf

Came to the waves, breaking skies,
on my way.
Jumped, into the past, where i rest,
to the things, once i left.

finally, i do come back, to my country where i left,
to the things i want, but certainly never get.
child inside me, tells me i want it,
the skies are not the same,neither the air.

Value

What is the value of Gold if not for the jeweler? Does Gold has a value of its own that is known to it or it is just told that he is precious by someone and he believes and rises up to the occasion and acts pricey. Never mind, it is Gold, it is non-living stupid material that uses humans to waste their hard earned money for something that glitters. So, would Gold be Gold if it does not glitter? Would the jeweler hold same value for Gold if it does not glitter?

Question I have to ask is, Who the fuck is jeweler anyway to judge and tell Gold’s value? Does Gold care that somebody knows its value or not, would Gold still be Gold if its value is unknown to itself? Does Gold even care if it’s valued by someone or not, Can it do something about that fact, it can’t just go phoof and turn into something else, it is and would just be Gold. So, if you are or we are Gold, do we need a stamp?

Hearing Part-II

So, what good is to see?

I am yet to understand this human emotion of closing their eyes in their most enjoyable and intimate moments. Why do we close eyes when we pray, we witness something spectacular, we enjoy our intimate moments. Closing eyes at some moment actually defeats the purpose but yet we scrum to it. We unknowingly do this, its not our conscious action. I have asked people to try to pray with their eyes open and they never seem to be able to as they would with their eyes closed. So, is it our vision that controls the mind or is it that the vision, actually contaminate the minds thoughts with what it observes.

Hearing

Of all the senses that we humans are incorporated with, I have found myself particularly drawn to hearing. It is the only way where you get the outlet to the outside world, you can hear words, as to what else could provide and do justice to the poet’s work. It is the only way where we are exposed to the outward. As the Voice is the revelation of the inwardness and hearing the sense, ear the instrument by which it is appropriated. For what else could reveal the emotions of the speaker then to feel it in th eardrums of our body. The modulation of voice works in a way so as to express and bring out the meaning of the words said,

Defining Love

Love is a big deal. People talk about it, People fall in it, People find it, People chase it, People crave it, People do all kind of crazy stuff and act weird for it but let me ask the ever invincible question - What is love?
Many of you would agree that i am not the best person to talk about this but still here i go to define love, to basically get it out in open what love means to me or how i see love or the kind of love i want. I tried reading books about love, read poetry about love, saw people in what they called to be love yet i need no stories or poetic brilliance to define my point of view. Read on..

Screw it up – aka – my apology!

Okay, so here it goes, my apology for each and every one who has looked forward to and found nothing to read here.

Yeah, so the thing is that I stopped writing here on facebook as I planned and decided in my head to be more focused on my writing project, and use whatever energy I put here on that but did i? No, I failed, the more I tried to keep this away, the more it went away from me, I love this, yeah, I love writing. This has been the ultramost discovery of my self in the adult years, and I want to write so much but then, I am a lazy ass, seriously, one time I almost paid 100$ for buying a software that would decipher my speech into text and I thought -  yeah, finally, glory but I did not take it because its different. Whats different, the story telling when you write and when you speak, I tend to get preachy and very philosophical (though dead sexy) when I speak, but I realized I am more grounded when I write. Plus, the phase of live where I speak and millions listen would only be achieved by writing, writing something that moves your head, twistes your brain, or just purely makes you love it.

To keep and live with!

Sinbad the sailor jahaaz me jab chala
Mere yaar sun lo sun lo
Dhoondh raha tha ek nayi duniya ka pata
Mere yaar sun lo sun lo
Woh anjaani raahon me thaa..o-o
Woh lehron ki baahon me thaa..o-o

Situational beings

People are made out of situations, And yes, i am going to say that out aloud, completely blunt like this.
And when i say people it includes you too.

A long, interesting, mentally stimulating, thought dissecting conversation with a friend pushed me again into my trance, and i came out with a refreshing learning. I have known this fact in my subconscious, have talked to my self about this but never it did powerade itself so much that it finally came out of the surface, it happened today. I finally came to this learning, many of my internal struggles were found to have answers.
Alright, so you do have your own set of rules,

About

ok, so read this great article by Adrian Tan again, which he delivered at some Singaporean university’s graduation day and my friend asks me – that these kind of articles we read that we read, and get motivated, and then reality strikes, need to earn, make a living and eventually everything goes into background//.
And probably this makes her sad.

Alright, let me start by giving an example of Gold.
Gold is one element, one valuable element but comes in different types depending on its purity – there is 18 Carat, 20 carat, 21 carat, 24 carat and so on.
And scientifically speaking, the melting point of lower quality gold is less then the higher quality piece because impurities lower its melting point. Alright, and also the impure gold is comparatively easier to

Time is Now

Of all the thoughts i have read ever, this one has been on my mind since forever, The time is now.
And day on day, this is becoming more and more relevant and true to me and myself. yeah, i referred to myself as 2 entities but that is the way it is. The me defines the part which deals with the outside and myself is where i deal with myself.

Leaving the philosophical grounds, let me start with a simple story that i have told everyone i know around a zillion times.
So if you buy a car and decide to take it for a spin only when all the signals are green, you may not get the chance.

The morning.

Okay, so its not even morning and I am awake! Yes, it sounds as surprising to myself as it does to you. Alright, so how crappy is it?? Much crappy,, infact its not even morning, its like the lat-est night. So wake up with a hint of acidity and absurd headache and I guess u cannot even call it waking up when you did not even sleep. You become unsure of your existence, you begin to doubt all that is there in the world. Feelings apart, getting ready is also a task as no matter how much you

Today's Special - Chef's choice!

Alright, so out of the blues, today i watched TV for brief moments, approximately 10-15 minutes while i was eating today.
So, what i took back with me to here is that there is a hike in the petrol prices again and a girl was shot due to "Mohalla enemity" middle of the market in buddh vihar, i dont even know where is that place.

So, today's special by the chef is no philosophy, only the kit to survival.

okay, so where do we start,

Relativity

There are days where nothing monumental happens but by the end of them, you don't know who you are anymore. You realize that your life is going nowhere. You start asking yourself where is this all going? And this further breeds to an all new sense of depreciation in yourself. Its like you have been looking in the sun for so long that the eyes just dont seem to work and are blinded to whatever you see now. 

There is downside to everything, all the stairs that take u up also bring you down. I mean that the every high time will lead to a low time and that's inevitable. We return to ground cuz thats where we live, so, no matter how much we enjoy the height or keep climbing, we will finally come down and live

Marital status - II (Contd.)

So the question was raised, how does one decide that they have found the "ONE"l.. and is meant to be??Nobody has offered me any sensible answers for this one, even the ones who have already taken the plunge, can't convince you. And it becomes funny when you fuck up with their minds and grow doubts into them about why did they got married?? The best part comes when you are able to convince that this love is temporary and will wash away with time and they actually believe shit and start worrying.

What if aka Schrodinger's cat

As you grow older, you will realize at some point that you do not regret the things you regretted rather you regret the ones you did not do, not taking that one step, not saying those few words, you regret the What ifs!

These are the situations which will haunt you, hunt you and then beat you down whole over your life.

Schrodinger's cat could either be dead or alive but it would always remain a dilemma, its a paradox. You've got to open the box or else you risk being caught in the paradox forever. That limbo would be impossible to come out. Honestly guys, how many times had we have to say dis, and all to ourselves that what if.. 

Apparently

Its been a crazy couple of days lately, have not been able to write, is something i should not complain about when i have not been able to sleep & eat properly. But thats ok, no big deal - happens -  is the word.
And after all it is so good to not get time to think, think even a bit about anything. No aggravated thinking which leads to tension, just thinking about work and yes that is tension but momentary and works well to get the best out. But still i like it, you do not have to sit idle or may be think about something , there is no time to pause, You are on the freeway.

The point of Art

The point of the Art is that it is Art!

Its not to be judged, not to be measured, it has to be felt as a feeling. Our Sensory organs may fail when judging art, it requires a detached thought and soul, a melancholy which binds the virtue to the thoughts. Art defies stagnation, it moves, rapidly, do not attempt to hold what is beyond stagnation. Art gives words, pictures, tunes, characters, faces to thoughts which otherwise would have been left unheard, unsaid and left un-understood.

Critique is good but useless for the artist which drew those lines in a feeling where every line he sees as a story, he tries to tell his story, but critique judges it, evaluates it on what they see, mere lines.

Truth

Truth always rests with the minority, and the minority is always stronger than the majority, because the minority is generally formed by those who really have an opinion, while the strength of a majority is illusory, formed by the gangs who have no opinion—and who, therefore, in the next instant (when it is evident that the minority is the stronger) assume its opinion... while Truth again reverts to a new minority!

The oblivion

What is that inside of us that drives the feeling Care?
What in fact is care?

I was forced to think today that what in fact is care all about? What is it inside each of us that wants the best for someone else. This is really astonishing as the way I know human – beings is to be selfish. There is not enough space and time in the universe to think or actually try to get the best for others but yet there is something that drives us crazy when these people of which we want the best interest, go out of their way, I mean haphazard.
Also, Is it right to tell people what they need to do or may be even put boundaries somewhere, I mean why?

Number#17

The human race is unreasonable, they have the freedom of thought and yet crave for the freedom of speech.

He just lay there, silent, quite,
looking at the ceiling, may be it is sometime worth it
this moment of silence, this moment of nullified existence
thoughts come,go, rise,fall, surface again
you finally think about something, something you wish, you want
but you stay still, see many opportunities
see many stories,
you make up conversations, you have conversations
in your mind, there is a million activity
but yet you appear still, physical appearance is deceptive
may be this is the art, of becoming great, of becoming holy,
the path to be enlightened, to contain the activity inside and appear still,
peace is overrated, for,
peace is within, peace ceases to exist outside
silence may still occupy the emptiness, but peace, that stems without any settings,
peace is the setting, peace,!


$ i have been asked a lot about why do i sleep so late?/
Well, even i am not sure but this time, this time i spend with myself, this alone time,  gets me ready for the Next day,
Prepares me much better then sleep could.

~Sincerely

Take it easy!

I see so many distressed men and women around, not happy, a little disappointed often let down, and that too mostly by themselves. They are of all the ages old, young and even younger, they don't know, they are just confused. The point being that they are sad & disappointed.
Do not curse yourself for you could not achieve what you wanted and definitely not on something which is beyond your control. Being impoverished over everything, is not gonna help, noway.
i totally believe that Its not the reality that destroys us rather the idea of perfection does that. The idea alone "that there exists something perfect" ruins us!

Untitled

Mind game, blinding flash
i see the party
i wanna gatecrash
but it’s not always easy
they never know till they see that look in your eyes
the look that says something’s missing
says you wanna be one of a thing
you wanna fly you wanna die
but you can’t even get by
without one breath of death

The Phobia of Growing Old

This has been something on my mind lately which i haven't been able to get rid off, and in the process of trying to forget it i have thought about it more. Is growing old that big a deal??/

Situation:
Friday, 9 march, 2012 - David Guetta (Also one of my favorite DJs) performed in Delhi. This time for this event, me and my friend agreed to let it go after the great Metallica debacle and just let it go! You know, we wanted to go but then, its becoming hot now here in Delhi day by day and i refused to be part of something which starts mid-afternoon and does not engulf the whole night in the party.

Action:
The Guetta concert was not attended, instead intensive rounds of guetta's songs and many a searches about him was done.Plus the booze, you know.
On a personal note, i admire Guetta's showman skills then his Dj skills cuz there are other Djs on my list which beat the fuck out of David

Conclusion:
This whole process taught me an immensely valuable theory, i myself implied it through the analysis that i did.
For those who here now think that i lost 

Marital status

Just talking to a friend about marriages and somone's recent marriage, i could not stop myself and presented below is the output.People are getting married and i dont know if they really understand the idea, the gist of marriage plus the consequences.I mean y do we have to get married, y does anyone have to get married?
I mean yeah, yes, marriage is a good thing but the idea, the thought of marriage is so overwhelming that i really wanna ask people how do they tackle it down, only if it is not ignorance helping them. Taking a decision this big in life, yet people marry to their school lovers, so did they made this decision in school or what?  I know for sure there is some underlying concept that i dont, yes i still do not understand. There is this quote i really like " Marriage is a beautiful institution, but who wants to live in an institution"// Also, if